The Part of my Divorce Story Where I Talk About the Really Hard
I have been quiet on my blog for awhile... because here I am a few years removed from divorce and I still feel bulldozed by how hard things are. In my mind, the level of hard I have had to grapple with over the last several months seems to scream at me that I haven't dealt with the really deep wounds that left me years ago careening down the hill in a runaway trolley frantically looking for a place to jump. See, the last several years I have been working through the steps of "moving on," but mostly, I have just been in survival mode. I didn't realize that one of the consequences of becoming acclimated to single parenthood and finally finding some emotional stability in my life, would mean that I would come to a place where my body would let me know it was time to face the darkest demon from my marriage. And that requires acknowledging the level of injury I suffered from someone who had promised to love me. Even now, it is scary to type these words. It is much easie...