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The Part Where I Thought I Could Save My Husband

  The part where I thought I could save my husband. Growing up I was often told that marriage was hard...that it took work, but it was work that was well worth it. All around me I had examples of lasting relationships, and it seemed that the only thing I had to learn to succeed at it, was to be all in 100% and then remain committed in sickness and in health, through the good times and the bad til death do us part. Except I am Mormon, so we talk more along the lines of a forever. So early in my marriage when issues started to creep up, I took it upon myself to fix them to prove that I "had what it takes" and could make my marriage not only work, but to thrive. The solutions seemed easy at first. Get into this doctor, see this counselor, find this psychiatrist, read these books! It was bumpy, but doable, and life marched on. We started our family, and our son came along, and with that came a period of unemployment for me who had been up to that point the primary bread winner fo...